Thursday, December 30, 2010

The Doldrums

      Have you ever heard of The Doldrums, Company?  They are the part of the ocean, sort of just a little bit north and south of the Equator, where the trade winds disappear.  Back in the days of yore before steam or internal combustion, ships would get caught in the Doldrums for days and days or weeks and weeks with no real usable winds and propulsion and just drift around feeling like shit and using up supplies.  Fast forward to the 21st Century, where certain people use the term The Doldrums to talk more about mood and attitude of a person, when they are a little down and don't seem to be moving forward.
      Well, I am in The Doldrums folks, and I am not sure why.  I am sort of just feeling like I am floating through my days with no real direction, which is just fucking stupid.  I have been having a splendid last couple of days.  I have been with people I love.  I have received many, many wonderful presents.  People have done wonderful things for me, but I am just sort of feeling this feeling down in there somewhere.  There being inside of me, of course.
      So what to do, what to do?  I am not exactly sure, Company.  I am just not sure.  I certainly do not want to send a pretty great 2010 out with a course of The Doldrums, but I am not quite sure how to make them go away and I am running out of time awfully quick.  There has to be some wind come through - there always is, even for all those sailors back in the day - but I am not sure what it will be.  Until then I guess that I will just continue to drift along waiting for the answer, and hope it comes by midnight tomorrow night.

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